my 25th birthday was yesterday.
turning 25 at first seemed horrible, but im hoping i can improve myself to be an actual mature woman.
i still feel like a stupid child in many aspects.

i didn't really enjoy my birthday, or my 3 day weekend.
i'm just drained and tired.
i don't even know why i'm so stupid.

i forced myself to go out later and it wasn't bad. it was pretty funny to watch everyone dancing and being drunk.

i just wanted to forget it all.



hopefully during my state of isolation, i can do things around the house and push myself to start taking care of myself.
its just that the loneliness stings right now, but maybe it will go away.