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Happiness

Monday, October 10, 2016

1:58 AM

It's Monday. My work week starts again. I'll be super busy for the next 3 days and then i'll
I can relax and enjoy my paycheck for another 3. I really, really like my schedule. Sure waking up early bites, but I get the best days off ever. And I don't have to work Sunday which is just so wonderful. Things are looking up and I feel happy.
Though to be honest, it feels like I'm forcing it. Like i'm telling myself to be happy, when others around me arn't. Then I start to wonder why. It feels like my happiness can shatter in an instant.
But I just have to ignore others. It seems like they lean on the bad more than the good.
I'm really trying. Please grant me happiness.

I finally have settled into a routine and I'm beyond thankful for that. Routines make me happy. They make me feel safe. They make me feel a sense of control and security, as false as it may be.
Good night.