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Monday, October 28, 2013
I've been thinking of how I’m such an embarrassing, shameful person.
Sometimes, I feel as though I’m just too corrupt. Too selfish.
Something I
do not like..something I detest within myself that I can’t pin point because I’m
simply too afraid to look into my true self and stare at whatever horrid flaws I
have.
I want to turn a blind eye. Something makes me a little embarrassed to
be me. Something makes me afraid to be myself.
I don’t want to search for
what it is.
So I go on, moping around and turning these pointless negative
thoughts in my head over and over again.
I felt sorry for myself.But I
realized something so simple.
I’m alive. I’m here. I can fix my mistakes. I
can be better than this.
I know, I’m pretty tired of myself talking so much
about change when I don’t really do it,
but having that realization there
makes me feel so much better.
I know I can fix myself. That’s all.
That
just makes me really happy.
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