Monotone;

Saturday, November 10, 2012

“If I'm lost please don't find me. If I jump let me sink.”
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What is there to say?
Everything’s been said over a thousand times.
I’m done. I’m apathetic. I’m sick.
My head won’t quit. I’d be a lot better if I was headless. I don’t do well with these messy emotions, these disgusting thoughts.
I’m sick of it.
What could be a nice relaxing time alone turns into a nightmare. and it’s all because of me. I want to forget it all so bad. Go back in time. I want to undo so much. All of it. I don’t care if I had to relive all the bad times because nothing I experience is as bad as this. Happiness escapes me because of this. I am going crazy..there is only so much I can take.